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Monday, February 05, 2007

painfully written .

nvr knew that u're such a person..c'mon,get out of my life..i ain't needing you anymore..just get lost man!FUCK!

{/12:09 PM} Y

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

painfully written .

read,pissed,and decided to just forget about it..since she wants to say everything till liddat,then go on ba..since she still kinda insist that she's right,then be it..i'll just insist on my stand then..perhaps as time goes by,we'd both realise our mistakes..but it'd be too late,and i dont think either of us will probably bother anymore..haha.well,glad that she feels MUCH happier cause i'm too(: well,whatever it is..it's the end of everything..FULLSTOP!anyway,lets pray for the better now(: hees!please,no matter what happened..please dont let our friendship drifted apart..just wants us to stay close in a sense..if i were to give up before anything happens,i will?i hope i will la,but i'll try my best i guess..come come,come to me please..hees!!=x

{/11:59 PM} Y

Monday, January 22, 2007

painfully written .

if u dont bother,why should i even care?thats the end of it,i'm not going to care about anything..perhaps i shall concentrate on some other things(: hees.

{/11:57 AM} Y

Saturday, January 20, 2007

painfully written .

finally finished with all the editing in the blog..woohoo~thou its not really a great job done,but at least i did try my best..lol~well,my brain is kinda dead now..hopefully when my brain functions properly once again,i'll edit my blog to make it look nicer?lol~mm,kinda met up with problems in my life now..quite alot i guess?well,shall just keep numb..nobody will notice in the 1st place..i'm the cheerful huishan as ever!mwahahaha!anyway,not quite in the mood of blogging..so shall just head off to bed now ba..

{/2:32 AM} Y

Sunday, December 31, 2006

painfully written .

woo~it's a long time since i blogged..was always lazy to,but since baby asked me to..i shall just do it just for her sake ba..lol.anyway,nothing to blog also la..cause i forget most of it already..shall blog whatever that is still on my mind then..mm,christmas?it was okay i guess..went out with baby,bble and huiqi..baby tried to give me a surprise by telling me that she can't make it and appear in the end..but it kinda fail,cause i already got that feeling that she'd be coming,and i donoe why..but i'm still happy that she did try giving me one(: love you my dear..anyway went to orchard and got sprayed..had a stain on the shirt that my baby bought for me laa!fuckers..anyway i think the bangalas more poor thing can?kena sprayed into the face and beaten up..disgraces to chinese man!hais..anyway,sorry baby during our anni..was working and wasnt able to celebrate with u=( anyway,happy 11th months(: guess we kinda celebrate it the next day ba..went out with her to tm..caught a movie,and sent her to eunos to take cab..i went to meet miko at ubi,shujing at aljunied,jas and fer at bugis..after slacking,we cabbed down to downtown for christelle's chalet..slacked more,went arcade too..hahahah.settled taiji with this fat guy and rushed home..was kp and all by my mother laaa..whatever..anyway woke up at about 12 plus cause baby coming to my house..she had a VERY hard time to wake me up..but when she came,i still sleep..was super tired laa,donoe why sia..mm,baby left at about 5 plus,sent her down..went to met miko under her blk,waited for her for quite a while i guess..then went to 325 to eat and went back home..watched vcds and tv..hhaha.

{/1:26 AM} Y

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

painfully written .

nothing much to blog..just work and more work..probably gonna slot all my days in with work(: money!here i come(:

{/1:02 AM} Y

Monday, December 18, 2006

painfully written .

ENOUGH!

{/1:52 AM} Y

... this is what i've to say about my day..cause my mind contains nothing,except for song lyrics!=x cause i think that those songs contain a lil bit of my feelings here and there,I GUESS!..some songs will be posted up=x

Seize The Day by Avenged Sevenfold
Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry, (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry, (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
Its empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
Trails in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

So, what if I never hold you, or kiss your lips again?
So I never want to leave you and the memories of us to see
I beg don't leave me

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you there
Please tell me what we have is real

(Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day)
(Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day)
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home

Time Machine by Click Five
Oh what a mess
Youve got the best of my heart it broke
And now it's just a joke
Cause you're moving right along
I'm still here and you're gone

Oh what a scene
You know I didn't mean for the winds to change
Won't ever be the same
Cause the kisses that you blew
Could never improve

I think I need some time by myself
Without anybody else
I just need to unwind
In my time machine
I need to go far away
A few years back would be okay
I just need to unwind
In my time machine

Hey you yeah I'm talking to you
You lost your love in bed
And now it's just dead
Because it didn't mean a thing
But youre waiting for a ring

Hey it's a game and
aint it a shame I was just a show
I thought that this was love
But I can't be fooled again
I'm crying out but I can't give in

I think you need some time
By yourself
Without anybody else
You just need to unwind
In your time machine
You need to go far away
A few years back would be okay
You just need to unwind in your time machine

Oh the things that we could change
(Things that we could change)
Now we'll never be the same

I think I need some time by myself
Without anybody else
I just need to unwind
In my time machine
I need to go far away
A few years back would be okay
I just need to unwind
In my time machine
By myself, I don't need anybody else
I just need to unwind
In my time machine [2x]

Baby Goodbye by Blazin Squad
Look in your eyes I see a new story
I can't deny my past ain't perfect too
Singin, I'm not here to get false answers
But just like you I got true questions too (yeah)

I never wanna let you go
In ya eyes I can tell that is what we both know
I never wanna see you cry
Or love so perfect let it die
Now baby, baby, baby

I, wanted you to go your way
I, wanted me to go mine
I'm, sittin here thinkin
Passin the time
I, wanted you to go your way
I, wanted me to go mine
I, never thought you'd say
Baby goodbye

Hearin your voice just makes me remember
All those times when we were nothin more than friends
I knew you, you knew me, and everything was plain to see
How did I let us get so deep?

I never wanna let you go
In ya eyes I can tell that is what we both know
I never wanna see you cry
Or love perfect baby let it die
Now baby, baby, baby

I, wanted you to go your way
I, wanted me to go mine
I'm, sittin here thinkin
Passin the time
I, wanted you to go your way
I, wanted me to go mine
I, never thought you'd say
Baby goodbye

Yo, I looked in ya eyes then I said
Baby I loved all the time that we spent
Then you replied with a tear in ya eye
It should come to an end then we'll both be friends
Both shed tears then we sat for a while
That stone cold feelin puttin on a smile
Know that your leavin lookin to the sky
That one dark evenin killin me inside
Through a new doorway to a next line
Coz you've gone your way and I'll go mine
You know I'll still see you face though we both been apart
I know you got your place deep in my heart
Yo, I just feel so down
Might come around but its for the best now
Both broke down and I'm choked inside
And from the first time when I said baby goodbye (goodbye)

Baby I tried to understand
Why ya had to leave me
And why ya had to be free
Lady I hope you understand
Why I didn't disagree
And why we weren't meant to be

I, wanted you to go your way
I, wanted me to go mine
I'm, sittin here thinkin
Passin the time
I, wanted you to go your way
I, wanted me to go min
eI, never thought you'd say
Baby goodbye

I, wanted you to go your way
I, wanted me to go mine
I'm, sittin here thinkin
Passin the time
I, wanted you to go your way
I, wanted me to go mine
I, never thought you'd say
Baby goodbye (Baby goodbye)

I wanted you to go your way (your way)
I wanted me to go mine (go mine)
I, sittin here thinkin
Passin the time
I wanted you to go your way (your way)
I wanted me to go mine (go mine)
I never thought you'd say
Baby goodbye

Vindicated by Dashboard Confessional
Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
And roped me in
So mesmerizing, and so hypnotizing
I am captivated
I am

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that I am

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself

So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away [3x]
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away [4x]

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself

Slight hope
Dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption

Mr Brightside by Killers
Coming out of my cage
And I've been doin' just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss It was only a kiss

Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag

Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his chest now
He takes off her dress now
Let me go

And I just can't look
It's killing me
And taking control

Jealousy
Turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
Cus i'm Mr. Brightside

I'm coming out of my cage
And I've been doin' just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss
It was only a kiss

Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag

Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his chest now
He takes off her dress now
Let me go

And I just can't look
It's killing me
And taking control

Jealousy
Turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
Cus i'm Mr. Brightside

I never
I never
I never
I never

{/12:54 AM} Y